26 March 2016

WILL YOU?

I can't believe it.
It has been a year since the day I meet you.
From the first glance,
I can feel that we might have the greatest chemistry,
as you smile, as you laugh,
everything just seems so bright.
You brighten my darkest part of life.

But I know, I knew it just now.
It wasn't for me 100%.
you have her on your side.
Now, whenever and wherever we go,
she was there too.
I can only smile to your antics.
You seem so happy with her.
I don't wanna ruin your day.

Knowing that you won't be mine alone.
Knowing that you can't be mine alone.
Knowing that I won't be here anymore.
Knowing that this took me a lifetime.
I won't, I can't, be here anymore.

I can only watch it from afar.
Your shadow has gone so far from mine.
You're so close yet so far for me to reach out.
I might not be needed anymore.
You're mad when I said that.
To you, friends are much more than lovers.
I feel so happy. But it still hurts.

The day you gave me the letter.
I smiled and cheered for you.
But there's nothing left for me.
I will keep all of my memories with you.
I will cherish them like my own life.
That will end soon. Sooner than I thought.
Goodbye love. Goodbye friend. Goodbye nothing.

Knowing that you won't be mine alone.
Knowing that you can't be mine alone.
Knowing that I won't be here anymore.
Will you remember me forever?
Will you say my name anymore?
Will you?

  • Music: G-Dragon - Shake The World
  • Mood: Melancholic (AS IF! HAH!)
  • Location: mah room!

24 March 2016

Insecurities In My Life.... :(

i've been stalking into my own blogger page for quiet some times now, and yet i have nothing to write.
idk. if before i can easily confess everything in my social account, now i'm being a lil bit picky about things that i gonna share with people although they're my friends.
i've been having lots of kind of insecurities plus my dad who never help with anything to make overcome it. he only knows how to make it worse.
day by day i've been looking down to myself on stupid things. like how ugly am i? how stupid am i? how people see me? how people thought of me? how well did i talk with people? should i just shut my life out from people? should i just stay quiet? everything keeps on playing on my mind.
sometimes i get at things without any reason. sometimes i find it safer to just stay in the room and feed myself with things that i love.
people keeps on wishing me so that one day i will find my true love and married soon.
but that's not what i want. i know it's necessary. sometimes i get jealous too. but that's not my goal in life.
people might say "you're 24 now. go find a partner. go find a lover or husband". but i'm sorry. that's not me. when there's one, then there is. but if there's none, i don't care. i wont' search for it.
when or who is my partner is not human to decide it for me. God has it's better judgement.
sometimes, i thought to myself, maybe i'm just a nerd who need to get a life. live like a normal person. stop watching kpop, jpop, anime n read mangas. go out more to see the world. n stop being an ugly potato.
but what for? it's not like people love be friends with me. it's not like i have lots of friends.
i wanna start a gaming channel. but i am too shy to talk on the microphone and people might bash me for being so stupid and should stop recording or whatever.. lol.
idk. i have so many n many kinds of insecurities. i don't even know how to cure myself. should i go and see a psychiatrist? or counselor? :(


  • Music: R.O.D by G.Dragon ft CL
  • Mood: Sleepy
  • Location: Workplace

16 August 2014

Good Day~ :')

Good day, everyone~
yes, i know, i know... it's been a long time actually...
i keep on coming to this blog to write something but then i went off without leaving any traces behind at all. hehee
i've been busy with my study and moreover, i got 1 1/2 year more to finish my study and i'm getting busy finishing my final year project which makes me seriously scared and nervous and....idk how to tell you about the feelings that i had now. huhu...

as i checked each of my old posts, i read all of the comments,
seriously, i missed those who spent their time to read my rants, blabbers and stuff.
suddenly i feel like, why didn't i being active as a blogger anymore?
why did i leave this blog untouched? why did i leave this blogging activity? *le sigh*

i'm always on my FB nowadays... since there are lots of important things right there...
every thing regarding my projects were posted in FB,
my friends are active on FB...and other things too.

i'm writing in here, right now, is because i suddenly miss everyone in here.
i know, i got just a few followers, and some are just silent readers.
but those who comment on my posts, give me support, encourage me to do better in life,
i really miss you guys.
and some of them even had already stop blogging, and i can't find their blogs anymore.

so to those who know me, to those who i had talked to,
to those who still remember me, to those who's still active and read this post of mine,
thank you so much much much!!! XD
i know, some of people that i know may had forgotten about me, and i may had forgotten about you guys too (i'm sorry ;_;),
or maybe you guys changed your name or something, it makes me wonder who's this and who's that. lol
i'm sorry but, know this, i missed you guys and thanks a lot for spending your time reading my posts and give your comments on it. i really appreciate it. ^^

LOVE you~! :3

  • Music: Am i Wrong by Nico & Winz
  • Mood: Mixed @_@
  • Location: Home sweet home

17 November 2012

@_@ hello there~

omg it has been so fucking long time since i last update my blog!!!
i'm so into twitter and facebook that i didn't find blogging is relevant anymore. LOL to that.
i still miss my blog. it screams DBSK! and yes, i'm an ot5!
there are too many challenges in this fandom.
facing all the stans and all.
and one of our friend is a Palestinians. we are currently so worried about her.
let's pray for Gaza, ne? May Allah saves them and protect them from Israel La'natullah!
even if they died, Israel think that they win this fight? nope. Israelis never win even from the beginning of their life.
because those who syahid, died without regrets. they already saw Jannah in front of them as they close their eyes.

May Allah saves Palestine!

  • Music: none
  • Mood: complicated
  • Location: in room

29 May 2012

Hey!!! Long time no see~

er... well, hello? *awkward*
yea, it's been a very long time since my last post. =_=
i was kinda...busy? yea but no. i don't effing know. OTL
i just... don't have any idea how to write something anymore.
not like before. =.=
maybe i should put the HIATUS sign once again.

STRESS~!

BUT! i guess i'm not gonna do that though.
there's so many things happen lately.
i just knew that someone is actually a psycho and she's my friend.
wow. i just... this is just a new experience though. haha!
and now father also met one. =___=
thank God my mom didn't met one too.
geez. i'm really scared if this gonna become like a movie called Roomate. (/°Π°)/~╘═╛
right, screw my life on that!


BUT! there's something that make me really happy~ *w*
THIS!!!!:


'TVXQ Cassiopeia' Headphone!!!!

OMG my life~
first time i show it to my mom, she said it was too expensive. (the price is RM39.90)
the second time, i try my best to ask her to buy it for me and she agreed. XD
i love you, Mommy!!!! >w<

BUT! there are another things that i bought when i go to that store (in BTS) with my friends weeks ago.
that is:

OMG i was like, "my life is...COMPLETE~~~"
haha! but you know, i need more and more of it. *w*

now, i really wanna buy XIΛ Tarantallegra~
it cost at only RM58!!! omg! \(°Δ°\)
i will definitely buy it soon!!!
WAIT FOR MEH!!!!
LOL.

yosh! Mika, start saving your money from now, okay? *w*
so, i guess that's all for today's craziness. muahahah!!!
i see you later~ toodles~



  • Music: anything in my playlist. <.<
  • Mood: sick. T___T
  • Location: at my home.

06 February 2012

shoutbox changed!! + Tora, have a new fan. XD

hello guys!!!!
erk. i realize that i didn't remove the 'HIATUS' sign yet. ok, whatever!
erm... i just wanna tell you guys that i've change the shoutbox.
now, feel free to leave me message or two~ okay? ^^

and, TORA!!!!!!! you have a new fan!!! XD
okay, i'm not talking about TIGER in here.
Tora in here is Tora from Alice Nine. ^^
don't know him??? aaaa.... here's the pic:

now you know him right? huhuhu
haha! just now i read about Alice Nine and my friend also join me looking at pictures and all.
suddenly, she fall in love with Tora. haha!
she said that Tora looks matured and so handsome with black hair. XD
ikr?? who never love Tora anyway?? :D
and yea... that's it. huhu...
nothing to say anymore.

oh! i forgot!
i just wanna wish:
お誕生日おめでとうございます, ユンホ!!!
"Happy Birthday, YUNHO!!!"
\(^0^)/
to our DBSK leader, please be strong. never give up!
i will always pray for DBSK's comeback.
i believe DB5K will comeback!

Always Keep The Faith!

oh! and... send my regards to Jaejoong. hehe! XD

  • Music: Holding Back The Tears - DBSK
  • Mood: mixed @__@
  • Location: my apartment

03 February 2012

Layout Case~~~

AGAIN??? yes. again.
i'm thinking of changing my blog layout.
aargh! but i don't know what theme should i use now. D:
any idea guys??? =.=


  • Music: Tsukurimasho - Azumanga Daioh
  • Mood: not that happy... <.<
  • Location: at college

23 December 2011

HIATUS! x___x

WEEL, YOU SEE...I DIDN'T UPDATE THIS BLOG FOR SO LONG.
AND I'M TOO BUSY WITH OTHER THINGS TO START BLOGGING AGAIN.
ASSIGNMENTS ARE KILLING ME THE MOST!
OTHER THAN THAT, I ALWAYS FORGET TO UPDATE MY BLOG.
I CAN'T UPDATE ABOUT HOMIN OR JYJ ANYMORE CAUSE I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME TO SEARCH FOR THEIR NEW STORY OR WHATSOEVER.
SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF.

WHAT TO DO?
AND FOR THAT, THIS BLOG WILL BE ON HIATUS FOR I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG... HAHA.
MAYBE UNTIL I HAVE SOME STORY TO TELL I GUESS. HURMMMM....


  • Music: Fire - 2NE1
  • Mood: STOMACH ACHE!!!! TAT
  • Location: in my apartment...

13 November 2011

New layout~

A/n: this won't be long post.

yey! at last!!! after a few times of struggling,
i got my new layout done... haha...
the background!!! DB5K of course...
dun ask me where i got the background.
and please do not steal it... >.>
i dunno if anyone know how to steal the background,
but for me, i know how.
and for those who know, DO NOT STEAL!!!!!

i almost die doing it and you steal for free???
NEVER!!!! D:<
if you steal it, i make sure that you won't live happily after that!
i swear!

huhu... *yawn*
so sleepy already. haha. till next time, guys.
bye2~~~ ZZZzzz...

  • Music: HoMin - B.U.T
  • Mood: sleepy. =_=
  • Location: YunJae dreamland

05 November 2011

VOTE VOTE VOTE!!!!! DX

HELLO GUYS!!! *A*
okay, i know there's too many spider webs in here! oh god!
*swipe swipe* phewh!

okay, i don't have time now! just get to the point okay??
well, as you know (if you know), we Cassies are so busy on voting for TVXQ for the MNET Asian Music Award!!!
i don't want to look pathetic but, can i ask you to help us, Cassies to vote for TVXQ??
just vote them for 4 categories that is:

  • Best Male Group
  • Best Dance Performance - Male Group
  • Song of the Year
  • Artist of the Year

PLEASE??? PLEASE HELP US??? CAN YOU???
THANKS for those who wanna help us!

you can go HERE to vote!

please??? vote for TVXQ please? just for 4 categories! the rest, you can vote other artist that you may like.
well, i know this may sounds kinda rude, but we NEED TO DEFEAT Super Junior!
don't say that i didn't love SuJu! i love them! but... the first priority here is TVXQ!
please!!! help us!!! vote for them everyday. can you? T^T
if i'm telling you the way of me voting for them, you may say that i'm crazy.
but for you, just vote them once a day is enough for us!

I'M BEGGING YOU!!! (;A;)
Please Vote For TVXQ! if not for TVXQ, just do it for me can???
if you love me, vote for them pls? (lol)
pls pls pls!! T____T

  • Music: Alice Nine - Birth In The Death
  • Mood: sleepy... >.<
  • Location: in ma room~~

29 October 2011

[FANVID] JaeHo Tribute - If you're not the one...



HOMYJAE. (;A;)
i really love this video!!!
it's so beautiful... so... wonderful. ;____;
i really miss YunJae these days.
and of course i miss DB5K too. T^T
this is so hard...
i really need to see them comeback as 5 once again...
seriously... *crying forever*
YunJae is REAL!!!! i don't care what people want to say!
the love is so pure! ;___;
omg. i can't hold this feeling.

Cassies, you with me?
Let's pray so that they'll comeback to us,
in a group of 5 people,
but with one heart that shares everything.

Always Keep The Faith.

a/n: this is just a simple update from me. there are so many things that i wanna share with you guys but, i don't know how to start it. >.>
so, this is okay ne? huhu... jaa~

  • Music: i'm listening to natures. (._.)
  • Mood: a lil bit down. >_>
  • Location: HSH

23 October 2011

Exam Result! I'm SO Happy!!! XD

hello guys!!!!! :D
yey! i'm so in a good mood today~~
well, not really but, yea. haha!
there's nothing much to say...
just i really wanna share with you about my exam result...
it's not that great.. but still, it saves me from being expelled! thank God.

well, the full CGPA marks is supposed to be 4.00!
i'm not that good enough to get that 4.00 though.
but... at least... 3.70 is not that bad too right? hehe...
yep. that's my result. yey! :D
i'm so happy, chingu!!!
another 0.30 to achieve 4! hurm...
but, i'm so happy that i can still get a great result.
i can't believe myself too. :)
my cousin also said that maybe there's a reward for the result that i get.
but, nah. i don't really need it. i'm not putting my hope so high.
this is enough. ^^

but Allah can give His bless to anyone that He wants.
^___^


A?N: well, i demand a Drawing Tablet from mother for this result though. haha! XD

  • Music: all songs in my DBSK playlist
  • Mood: happy~~~ :D
  • Location: HSH

18 October 2011

Secret Message from TOHOSHINKI 1st~5th ALBUM?

seriously i don't know who's the original owner of the pic!
but all credits goes to the owner! i'm just sharing stuffs >.<


How can i not love TVXQ/DBSK/Tohoshinki/HoMinJunJaeChun FOR THIS??
they can still keep their faith strong and it will get stronger from time to time.
but wae fans can't keep their faith as strong as them? waeyo???

  • Music: A Pink - Just Let Us Love
  • Mood: Complicated! @_@
  • Location: HSH

16 October 2011

111016 Maximum -- TVXQ5 DANCE PRACTICE



not gonna write much just...
MA5IMUM DAEBAKKK!!!! XD



  • Music: MA5IMUM - DB5K
  • Mood: HAPPY!!! :D
  • Location: HSH

15 October 2011

[MAV+Lyrics] A Pink – ( Let Us Just Love) PtB OST.



ROMAJI:

ttonaegamwol(naegamwol)naegamwol(naegamwol)naegamwol jalmotaenni(ni~iii)
tukhamyeon ppijigo(ppijyeoseo)jichigo(jichineun)naemameul arajwo

(itjanhaBaby)neo ppuningeol naegaseumttwigehaneun hansaram
(aljanhaBaby)nado ojik neoppuningeol

urigeunyang saranghagehaejuseyo durissaujianke haejuseyo
ttaeron uisimhago datujiman geuraedo(geuraedo)geuraedo neol saranghae
ajigeorin najiman(jiman)nareulmideojullae eonjekkajikkajina(neoman saranghallae)
saranghagehaejuseyo yeongwontorok nayaksokhalkke

jjamkkanirado yeollagi andoemyeon dapdaphae dapdaphae dapdaphae dapdaphae waeirae(waeirae )
chingudeul mannareonagamyeon buranhae buranhae buranhae buranhae waeburanhaehae

(itjanhaBaby)Don’t be afraid niga ssuiun kongkkakjittaemune
(aljanhaBaby)neobakke moreuneun geol na nan neoppunya

urigeunyang saranghagehaejuseyo durissaujianke haejuseyo
ttaeron uisimhago datujiman geuraedo(geuraedo)geuraedo neol saranghae
ajigeorin najiman(jiman)nareulmideojullae eonjekkajikkajina(neoman saranghallae)
saranghagehaejuseyo yeongwontorok nayaksokhalkke

Rap>urin hangsang niga deojalhae ani niga deojalhae hangsang ireoke ssaugo neul
hwanaemyeo malhae dasi niga nappeunjit tto naega deo nappeunjit ttajijimalgo jebal uri Yeah~

urigeunyang saranghagehaejuseyo durissaujianke haejuseyo
ttaeron uisimhago datujiman geuraedo(geuraedo)geuraedo neol saranghae
ajigeorin najiman(jiman)nareulmideojullae eonjekkajikkajina(neoman saranghallae)
saranghagehaejuseyo yeongwontorok nayaksokhalkke

urigeunyang saranghagehaejuseyo durissaujianke haejuseyo
ttaeron uisimhago datujiman geuraedo(geuraedo)geuraedo neol saranghae

Just deal with my post okay?
i suddenly come to like this song because it's cute!!! >< not that i like A-pink though.

  • Music: A Pink – Let Us Just Love
  • Mood: JYJinJapan!!! :D
  • Location: YunJae room. >///<

08 October 2011

feels like moving. :\

hello guys...or girls... whatever! ahaks!
Good morning~ how do you do?

erm... lately... i was thinking of moving~
i mean, i want to move from blogger to LiveJournal.
but... i don't know.
i've said this several times but it just can't be done. :\
now blogger act seriously so strange! D:
i don't get it! T_____T

owh, i'll stop here.
i don't know what to say actually... =__=

  • Music: Jason Derulo - Don't Wanna Go Home
  • Mood: confused - headache @_@
  • Location: damn room

29 September 2011

[MV] Kim Jang Hoon n Kim Heechul Duet - Breakups Are So Like Me



sorry for the late post~
finally, the MV was released.
i'm late for about 3 days from the date it was released.
i've watch it for i don't know how many times already but i just didn't post it in here. huhu...
watching this makes me happy.
it's funny n i miss Heechul so much. :')

enjoy the video!

  • Music: Kim Jang Hoon n Kim Heechul Duet - Breakups Are So Like Me
  • Mood: YunJae
  • Location: my beloved house :')

26 September 2011

Happy #MiroticDay !

okay, today is... 26 September 2011 right?
yep. it is.
and do you know what all Cassies celebrate for today?
as you can read the title,
it's a Mirotic Day for us! :D

why? because on this day,
it has been 3 years since DBSK's Mirotic Album were released!
okay, it's already 3 years!
how fast the time goes? amazing yet, it's sad too.

and yesterday,
Junsu tweet something too.
it's... a heartbreaking. i feel so sad as i read his tweet.
he said:

[read from bottom to top]

@0101xiahtic
서로 맘을놓지않고 모두 이겨내겠죠.. Cause you are my everything to me 너무나 좋아했던 이노래..우연히 오랫만에 들었어..근데 이노래가 낯설게 느껴지네...맘 아프게..

[TRANS: Not letting go of each other, we'll make it through everything.. Cause you are my everything to me - A song that I used to like very much. I heard it by chance after a long time..but this song became unfamiliar to me..and it hurts my heart.]

@0101xiahtic
Don't say goodbye...

it's kinda sad to read his tweet. :(
but, all that we can do is keep on waiting and praying,
so that time will change everything back to normal.
i mean, DBSK will be 5 again.
i shall wait for it.

let's wait together!
DB5K hwaitng!
Cassiopeia hwaiting!

lastly, let's relax and enjoy yourself with this smoking HOT video!
okay, this is no porn!
just an MV. Mirotic by DBSK!
enjoy!



  • Music: DBSK - Mirotic
  • Mood: mixed
  • Location: in my room. lol

23 September 2011

[Teaser] Kim Jang Hoon and Heechul’s duet



THIS IS SO CUTE!!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE REAL VIDEO!!!
I miss Heechul so much. >.< ararararrarararararaaarararar...... HEECHUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! gyaaaaahhhh!!! XD -THE END-


  • Music: SuJu - A-CHa
  • Mood: happy+sad+worried
  • Location: home

[!!Cassies!!] An insight to what might Happen to Homin in SMe

okay, i was on twitter just now and someone shared a link to this article on Tumblr.
not an article i guess.
it's just a post by a Chinese-Casie(maybe).
Cassiopeia has to read this!
don't care if you're a stan or hater, hope that you can think about this thoroughly.
no war please. just read and think.

Eng TRANSLATION:

-Back then HoMin only thought about protecting the “DBSK” name. At the beginning of the court case, many of SM’s groups were still very new. SM still doesn’t have a group that could replace DBSK just yet.

Back then, SM HAD to say things like “We miss DBSK” and “We invested a lot of time in to them” and so forth. SM is relying on HoMin’s popularity to create and debut newer groups. JYJ have been banned on all variety shows, but have u noticed? HoMin isn’t on many variety shows either. (SHE PUT MORE THINGS HERE, BUT I’m NOT THAT GOOD AT CHINESE SO I KIND OF DON’T KNOW WHAT SHE SAID)

- Right now, SM is probably using this method: They are using HoMin’s popularity to earn more money to spend on their other groups and to debut new ones. They are using the least amount of money on HoMin while still exploring and exposing HoMin’s greatest potential. I mean, SM could really have concerts for HoMin to perform in right? So why aren’t they producing tours for them? SM also understands this clearly.Many go to the lives just to see TVXQ (HoMin), the red ocean in Tokyo Dome is self-explanatory. The news reports never properly credited them for their efforts. So those of you who did not attend the live show (I believe that she’s referring to Music Bank in Tokyo Dome)would naturally believe in what KBS said.

First they [SM] would not talk about HoMin’s popularity on TV, so that the Korean fans would slowly believe that their idols are not popular anymore, and when they’re introducing TVXQ, they would just say it quickly in one take. The goal? It’s to let TVXQ’s popularity and dominance to quietly fade away.

Do you still not see it?
They’re banning JYJ because of the lawsuit, but they’re also quietly blocking HoMin because they want to debut and promote newer groups (who in turn, will help SM earn even MORE money). IF one day, there might be a group that have reached TVXQ’S status,who knows? SME MIGHT REALLY KICK HOMIN OUT. THey will single-handedly pull down TVXQ.Whatever they said about “picking out the best of the best to form this group” and “we invested a lot of time in to them” will all be rubbish at that point.SM ONLY CARES ABOUT HOW MUCH MONEY A GROUP CAN EARN THEM RIGHT NOW. THEY DO NOT CARE ABOUT HOW MANY #1’S THAT GROUP HAS EVER ACHIEVED . ONCE THAT GROUP LOSES THEIR POPULARITY,THEY WON’T CARE ABOUT HOW ‘LEGENDARY’ THE GROUP WAS BEFORE. AS LONG AS THE GROUP STARTS TO EARN LESS MONEY FOR THEM,THE GROUP WILL BE TRASH IN SM’S EYES.Remember the legendary H.O.T? Weren’t they the top group back then? And then what happened to them?

The Fourth Album came out on September 24, 2008. They also went on the Mirotic tour around the same time. They spent about 5-6 months advertising this album. They also came out with the 4th Japanese album during their Korean promotions.They came out with The Secret Code on March 25th.HoMin’s come back album was released January 5, 2011. Didn’t you guys think that DBSK was SM’s money tree? I also thought like that too.The two years and three months were surely enough time off to make sm go crazy over money right? So crazy that they can’t wait to produce a concert for Homin to earn more money? So why aren’t they doing it? If you count from the fourth album till now, that’s already MORE than 6 months. Isn’t it the perfect time to hold a concert now? But why is it that SM doesn’t seem to care about earning more money that way? And why are they still spending MORE money for Homin to go on shows to advertise?

Also, why didn’t they first release a KOREAN SINGLE and THEN release a Japanese single after a month or two? Instead, they released a fifth album for both Japan AND Korea in the same month. If sm says that it’s to keep their popularity up in Japan, then I want to say one thing.According to SM’s way of doing things,shouldn’t they release a new single then promote it with a tour? Isn’t that the most direct way to promote the new single?They’re extremely popular in Japan, there’s no doubt about that. If I remember correctly, AREN’T THEY THE FIRST KOREAN ARTISTS TO STEP ON THE TOKYO DOME STAGE AND HOLD A TOUR THERE? Actually, SM doesn’t even worry about their popularity in Japan. So why would they release two albums at once?

Maybe I thought of this a bit before the time when Changmin was injured. I always felt that JYJ’s departure would leave SM wondering if they (SM) did the right thing or not.I was so naive that I even believed that SM would treasure the current DBSK.But what really happened? Yunho’s leg got injured, remember?How long ago was his injury? Yet there are still scars of it.It must be such a deep injury that even after such a long time, it still hasn’t healed properly.They said that it was a “light” injury, but it still had to be wrapped. As far as I know, only BONE FRACTURES need to be wrapped as well as ligaments. If it was a ligament, then external heat would’ve healed it faster. Anyhow, SM has not been clearly explaining about Changmin’s wrist injury. I just want to say that we are NOT experts, but we can still ANALYZE THESE TYPE OF THINGS.

I don’t want to be so naive as to actually believe in what SM says. SM is trying to cover up many many things by saying that they are very happy right now.SM will never change.They are still treating HoMin the same way as they did before. As for Yunho & Changmin, I could only say that they got used to it. also, when you guys say that Yunho and Changmin are traitors,have you used your heads to think? Think of what Park Yoochun said in his lyrics in the “Untitled Song”. “ “At last, I never imagined us being so big over seas, so I stepped up and joined the company. Then, the results came out negative of what we saw it as. I thought it was stated wrong so I re-checked the matters of it all. Damn, I fell to all the ‘expenses’ of everything. What kind of freaking expenses were paid off on so much money? I remember the company saying if we left it would be difficult for us. You’re just like the rest of the sunbaes. Did you expect us to stay and earn you money?”

When they were a five membered group, why do you think they stayed in SM and experienced all that was mentioned in Yoochun’s song? Easy. It was for us, fans and for the members themselves. If homin left too, then we would never be able to scream out the name “DONG BANG SHIN KI” out to the members. I always thought that HoMin were at a safe place, and that SM would change their ways. Yunho and Changmin look like they’re having it easy, don’t they? But really, they have many many responsibilities upon their backs and many tears that they’re trying to hold back.

It is easy to realize that the five have gone through many obstacles during this period. Yunho forced himself to who knows what level in order to skate perfectly on Kiss&Cry.Falling down and then getting back up and then falling and getting up again.After skating practice, he has to go up on stage and put on a perfect singing and dancing performance. I think, that it might not be what he wanted to do? Being the leader IS that difficult.When they go on shows, he has to say a few things. Even if they’re just a few words, he has to constantly remember and practice in his head what to say, and whether or not it’s suitable to say it.

CHANGMIN. Think of how hard was it for him to wear a cast in such hot weather.That’s all we could see, as fans, but really how much pain has he had to endure? How many times has this happened before? Changmin is speaking less now. Many people will argue that he speaks more NOW than when they were a 5 membered group. I noticed that one time on a show, all he did was just smile.Maybe what they were saying were really that funny?He’s really simple. So simple that he just wants to stand on stage and sing.

YOOCHUN- Why do you think that he felt the need to write “Untitled Song”?( I’m not sure what she put here since I really don’t know that much chinese) When this song came out, SM blocked JYJ even MORE.He wrote this song and expressed all the painful experiences they had during the 7 years together as a debuted group. A 7 minute song that expresses to us how much pain they had to endure. Sungkyung kwan Scandal, the first drama that you starred in, but you weren’t able to promote properly. In the end, you prevailed and was awarded.

JAEJOONG- was forced to personally contact their sponsors for their concert tour. He had to endure all the insults and criticisms for whenever he mentions anything about missing DB5K and for changing his twitter to “JYJ from TVXQ”.He loves them so much. He loves them so much that he even says that the songs he wrote all belong to the five members of TVXQ or at this point, he’s not afraid anymore.Actually, they can all stand on stage together. Even he said that he never thought that he would be blocked from promoting in his own country.All he could do is upload pictures of Jeju island on his twitter while carrying many sorrows in his heart.

JUNSU- The most innocent and honest one. Like Changmin, he quietly completes his work.Do you all still remember the time when a group of anti’s were deliberately attacking him on twitter?He’s so innocent and helpless.It breaks my heart, but I never know what to do for him.Even if it’s just a practice session he’s a perfectionist.You all don’t know what happened. Junho stopped promoting in Korea, so there was Japan left.Why do you think he stopped promoting in Korea?Hey, you anti’s can’t even leave his brother alone!Then afterwards, all Junsu could do was say very poetic but very depressing things.

THE FIVE: Ever since their debut, they’ve fought for their dream.Fighting for that one ending that they all dreamed of.There’s always us (Cassiopeia). Without us, they would not know who to sing to.They don’t seem to say that because of us, that they’re very happy anymore.At this moment, I don’t hope for anything complicated. I just hope that they are all very well.

Maybe they’ve all found their own reasons? As for me, I haven’t found a reason just yet. All I know is that I still love them.I already said to myself that “If they are not TVXQ, then they should just be Kim Junsu, Kim Jaejoong, Jung Yunho,Park Yoochun and Shim Changmin.Maybe that’s how mysterious my heart is? I can accept the entire world, but yet I can only accept the Five of you.

i cried as i read this.
how about you? have you ever think of all of this?
Cassiopeia is for them. without us, they will not as strong as now.
whether it's JYJ or HoMin (i rather call them as HoMin rather than TVXQ cuz JYJ is also TVXQ),
they need us.
and Cassies, why became seriously selfish nowadays???
did you know everything and every single things deep inside their heart when you're bashing JYJ or HoMin?
that wasn't Cassiopeia is all about! Cassiopeia is all about getting together and support 5 of them!
not just two or three of them!
sometimes, i miss the old Cassiopeia.
whoever you are right now, stans or haters, i believe that you're once part of Cassiopeia.
why changed so much??? don't be so selfish by only think about what you want and how you feel without even think about how the boys are feeling!

i'm so proud of some fans that still love all 5 of them.
never give up will you?
keep on praying so that they can be together again.
keep in your mind that, if there's no Yunho, Jaejoong, Junsu, Changmin and Yoochun,
there will be no TVXQ! and when there's no TVXQ,
there'll be no a fandom called as CASSIOPEIA that is where you're standing now!

ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH! <3

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